Pip Vomits out incoherent thoughts and feelings

 So I deserve to be heard and to be validated just as much as the next person. I'm not asking for too much; I deserve to thrive in my life as much as the next person. So I keep being tempted to minimize my feelings and frustrations by telling myself to quit whining, to be grateful for what I have, and to shut up already.

But you know what? No. I'm just as human as the next person, which means my feelings and needs are just as valid as everyone else's. Feeling frustrated is not a sense of entitlement; it's the natural progression of being human and experiencing a lack of certain things that are ESSENTIAL for growth and well-being.

So this is me, crying out into the void. If no one is reading, or if I'm invisible, it really doesn't matter. This is me, this is what I'm feeling, and I'm posting about it on my own personal blog.

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 Is anyone actually seeing my posts? Its kinda disheartening to vomit my heart and soul out and then have no idea whether or not I'm being heard.

Theory for the Sherlock Christmas Special


I had a thought a day or so ago, as you do. Concerning the Sherlock Christmas special.

From everything I’ve read, the special is supposed to take place in 1895. Now, there’s no reason to think that Moftiss is going to stick to any of the ACD canon timeline (as erratic as that is), but WHAT IF….

1895. A year after Holmes’ return from The Hiatus. Watson is now widowed and once again living at 221B Baker Street, with Holmes. We’ve been led to believe that the episode has to do with ghosts somehow, perhaps a case involving the appearance of the supernatural.

Consider also that the scenes we’re given of Mary so far do not involve any dialogue or engagement with others on her part. We see her sitting on the arm of the chair that John is sitting in, which implies a level of intimacy, but John’s attention is elsewhere. He seems to be completely unaware that she’s even there.

In this episode, could Mary Watson – be a ghost??

The only thing that doesn’t really jibe with that is the mourning outfit that she’s wearing…..


I’m sorry I’ve been MIA in more ways than one. I was offered a job (pay raise, promotion) in Houston TX. I currently reside in Grand Rapids, MI. They want me to start May 25. Needless to say I’m a bit nerve-wracked, anxiety-ridden and just all around distracted. Plus I have to have a hard conversation with my roommate of over 10 years. My gut has been churning non-stop.


Okay, remember how my office was supposed to have closed down by the end of last year? Well, we're still here, although nobody knows for how long. The uncertainty is a bit disconcerting, but at the same time there have been opportunities opening up all over the country.


I came back into work today after a week's vacation. The director of our site pulled me into his office, and asked me if I'd be interested in a job opportunity in Houston, Texas. There is no guarantee of anything, but *SQUEEEEE*!!!!  This is the most validating news I have received in a long, long time, at least pertaining to my job/career.
I'm not sure if i'm more excited or scared.... and of course, on top of all that, there's no guarantee I'd even be offered anything. But still.

Six Sentence Sunday

Over at tumblr there's a tradition of posting six sentences of a WIP that you are currently working on that hasn't been posted yet. I thought of doing it over here too, because why not? This is my first time doing so, so if you have any comments/thoughts/suggestions please let me know! I always get nervous if I get no comments or no indications that people are actually interested.

This is a bit more than six sentences, from a Sherlock WIP that I am working on:

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Sherlock Fic: Polaris

Title: Polaris
Author: PipMer
Length: 6300 words
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Relationships: Sherlock Holmes/John Watson, Sherlock Holmes & John Watson, Mary Morstan/John Watson
Characters: Sherlock Holmes, John Watson, Greg Lestrade, Mary Morstan
Additional Tags: Alternate Reality, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Fluff, Angst, Happy Ending, Friendship, Romance, Season/Series 03 Spoilers, 5+1 Things, Birthday Fic, Retirement!Lock

Summary: In every possible universe, and in any conceivable reality - one thing always remains constant:  Sherlock Holmes loves John Watson.

Author's Notes: A late late birthday gift for my friend opaljade. I hope you like it!

This is formatted as a  5 + 1 story. The first section is canon compliant, taking place during The Sign of Three. The next four sections are divergence from canon, showing four alternate ways events could have transpired. And the final +1 part - well, I hope that it's self explanatory.

Special thanks to both prettybirdy979 and batik96 for beta duties, cheerleading and encouragement. You are the best! And much gratitude to arianedevere for use of her transcript, which is found here.

Just one final note: yes, the quote at the beginning is from a Wikipedia article, here.  I chose to include it because, in my mind, it is the perfect metaphor for the story I am trying to tell.
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